Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Crown Me!

I finally got my butt to the dentist for my crown on Saturday, after rescheduling two times. I woke up that morning feeling not too swift in the melon department, but I decided to stick it out.

During the procedure, I wore my sunglasses again. It helped a great deal. I think dentist office's should just offer them in the first place! In between x-rays, numbing, drilling and molding, I had the assistant sit me up, because I was hanging out in verp city with a nauseous tummy. There was a scary moment during my last molding where I thought I might chuck and my mouth was basically glued shut. I did some relaxation thoughts like "relax, release and let go" and I managed to get through it.

Afterward, I had a chilled ginger ale waiting for me in the car. I think next time I might listen to an affirmation or relaxation cd in the car during the drive there. I should have my final crown in three weeks. Hopefully that appointment will go better.

Here are my tips so far for a migraine chick getting through a dental appointment:

Wear sunglasses.
Use relaxation techniques.
Ask the assistant to sit you up during pauses.
Try not to spew on the dentist.
Have a ginger ale waiting in the car for afterwards.

Saturday, September 27, 2008

Thursday, September 25, 2008

Migraine Barbie Goes Black and White

Recently, I realized that I haven't made any new Migraine Barbie photos in a while, and I saw some cool B&W photos of fashion dolls on Flickr, so I thought I would give it a go. In honor of my migraine related insomnia, Migraine Barbie has been having sleepless nights as well. It could be because of her migraines or her watching zombie movies all the time or a combination of both.

The first picture is called "Night of the Living Migraine Barbie."

The second picture isn't technically a Barbie. She is a Dawn Doll that I picked up at a flea market, so her picture is called "Dawn of The Dead."

Saturday, September 20, 2008

The Toaster Did It!

Since I haven't been able to medically prove there is a devious squirrel living in my head, who is giving me migraines, I've been rummaging around in my childhood memories for reasons. The toaster part is true. My mom told me not to stick a butter knife in the toaster to retrieve a broken piece of toast, and I did it anyway. I ended up on the floor! Zap!!

Thursday, September 18, 2008

"I feel like s**t!"

At work, I use my own notebooks for scribbling down stuff during client calls, like doing math, etc. My place of employment only supplies scrap paper and it’s a hassle to go looking for it, and I like having lines on my paper. It’s easier to focus for me. I stock up on a bunch of notebooks every time I go to the dollar store, so it doesn’t cost a lot.

Anyway, I occasionally vent in my notebooks as well, if I’m having a difficult call or a difficult day at work. The other morning, I came into work, barfed, and started my day, but not before I wrote “I feel like shit” in my notebook.

Well, my computer was having problems and I had to call over my supervisor to help me. He had to call the tech desk from my set, so he was sitting there on hold looking around at my desk

“I feel like shit?” he asked.

I stared at him for a second, not registering what he was saying until I looked down at my open notebook. I hadn’t closed it.

“Well, I do,” I said. “I just vent in there sometimes.”

He paused. I thought he might ask me further about feeling like shit or say something like “poor baby,” etc…like maybe we could connect on a personal level, but no such luck.

“Is there anything bad about me in there?” he asked, jokingly.

“No,” I said.

I did really consider writing something bad about him after he left my desk, but I didn't want to waste my time.

Monday, September 15, 2008

Making Paper Collages

For a while I’ve been pursuing finding a craft that I can actually handle on a regular basis. Crocheting went horribly wrong. Making stuffed mouse cat toys was a huge failure. I couldn't even get into coloring.

Lately, I’ve been working on more paper collages, which I guess could be called paper crafts. I’ve been making them from magazines, using scissors and a glue stick, and it’s something I can actually handle.

I don’t know if it’s the cutting action, but I actually feel better doing them. It’s like a mild level of distraction and I don’t need a lot of focus. Most of them are migraine focused, so I can take out some of my frustration on them.

I've also discovered that people actually put their collages in things called art journals.

Here is a cool article about it. How to Collage in Your Art Journal.

And here is my favorite collage that I've made so far.

Thursday, September 11, 2008

The Girl with The Marshmallow Brain

I don’t know why I set myself up like this. Recently, I watched a movie called That Forsyte Woman with Greer Garson and I really liked it. I found out it was based on the novel The Forsyte Saga, which I decided I really wanted to read.

Last night at Borders, I tried to find it, but I couldn’t remember whom it was by, so I tried the search computer at the information desk. I couldn’t remember how to spell “Forsyte.” I tried every variation I could with no success. A clerk tried to help me, but she couldn’t spell it either. Then I got the notion to find the movie by Greer Garson and go from there. Finally I found the author’s name, John Galsworthy, and I headed to the literature section.

And guess what. It was this frigging thick book with teeny tiny print that I could never read with my migraines in a million years. I was so frustrated that I exclaimed, “My brain is a marshmallow” out loud right when another clerk was walking by.

"Can I help you?" she asked.

Only if you reverse my marshmallow migraine braininess, I thought, but I told her no.

I ended up in the humor section where I picked out a book called Appetite for Detention by Sloane Tanen, a humor picture book about chenille chickens.

Monday, September 8, 2008

Blogging for Invisible Illness!

Here is my post for National Invisible Illness Week.

Gold Star Envy

One of the hardest places for me having an invisible illness with my chronic daily migraines is the workplace. I work in a highly monitored environment that is the call center where they score everything you do from how long it takes you to complete a phone call to how long you were away from the phone to go the bathroom on an unscheduled break.

It is a lot like being graded in school and just like in school, good grades are rewarded, even with gold stars. They actually hang paper gold stars over employee’s cubicles.

I have never gotten a gold star at work and it is because of my invisible illness. I want to excel at my job, but I cannot because of the difficulties of my migraines. Some days, I’m barely making expectations, which is being a “C” student.

I would have to say at least 90% of my huge office isn’t aware of my migraines, and even those who know about them don’t have any idea about the struggle that I face every day at work just to get through it.

Who knows what my co-workers think about me. I’m sure they think I’m some sort of slacker, but they don’t know my frequent trips to the bathroom aren’t because I’m goofing off. It’s because I’m throwing up. I’m not closing my eyes at my desk because I’m sleeping or lazy. I’m closing them because the light is killing my eyes. My frequent days off work aren’t because I’m going shopping. I’m home sick, trapped in my bedroom in the dark, wondering if this is going to be my last day on earth because the pain is so bad.

So how do I combat this gold-star envy? I have to tell myself to put it into some perspective. In the end, how much of this stuff really matters. Do I even remember who the valedictorian was in my high school class? No. I don’t have a clue. My work scores aren’t going to go on my tombstone either. It’s not going to read, “Migraine Chick got a 77% on her last score.”

I just have to tell myself I’m working on a different playing field. Could any one else even work with my migraines? In addition, if I didn’t have my migraines, I’m sure I would have gold stars galore.

It is hard to hear co-workers being recognized all the time for a job well done at work, but I’m going to give myself an invisible star for managing so far to keep my job with an invisible illness.

Saturday, September 6, 2008

Pain Game Buttons

I definitely needed some new buttons for work this week. I was having a very bad pain week, and I throwing up at work like crazy. Thursday, I did it twice and Friday, I did it three times. Also, I had to reschedule my crown appointment at the dentist today. (for the second time) I just couldn't deal with getting a crown with this much pain this week.

Friday, September 5, 2008

Non-Chocolate Treats

Sometimes, I don’t even want to deal with the stress of wondering whether chocolate is going to be a migraine trigger or not. I just want to eat something sweet and enjoy myself. During the years, I’ve discovered some non-chocolate treats that I want to eat even if I’m not avoiding chocolate, and I probably wouldn’t have discovered them if not for my migraines. Here is my list so far:

Goetze's Caramel Creams

Fralingers Salt-Water Taffy

Boyer Smoothie Peanut Butter Butterscotch Cups-like a Reese's Peanut Butter Cup sans chocolate. Usually find them at retro candy type stores.

Penuche and Maple Pecan Fudge

Whoppers Reese's Peanut Butter

Zagnut-crunchy peanut butter and toasted coconut bar.

Pralines-my favorite ones are from Aunt Sally's in New Orleans.

Divinity-a fluffy, air like candy with a crisp outer layer.

Does anyone else have any other non-chocolate treats that I can add to my list??

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

Invisible Illness Week!

Invisible Illness Week is next week.

"Nearly 1 in 2 people in the USA have a chronic illness and according to U.S. Census Bureau about 96% of illnesses are invisible. So it comes as no surprise that with hundreds of thousands of people on the Internet searching for health support and information, thousands of people now post daily blogs about the emotional trials they experience while facing chronic pain on a regular basis.

National Invisible Chronic Illness Awareness Week is being held September 8-14, 2008. Part of their outreach includes over thirty days of guest bloggers as well as bloggers all over the web posting about invisible illness issues."

So I made this invisible illness comic at Strip Generator for Migraine Chick Comics.

Monday, September 1, 2008

State Fair Chickens

I managed to get myself to The Michigan State Fair this weekend, and once again, I found myself arguing with the chickens in the poultry exhibit. My goal was to get some good chicken pictures, but the darn chickens would not cooperate. Every time, I tried to take their pictures they would either show me their butt or dart around the cage. I think the butt thing was more insulting.

I kept telling them I was on their side. I wasn’t going to eat them! I wasn’t going to use their feathers! But would they listen. I must have taken a couple dozen pictures only to get a couple decent ones.

Here is my best photo. I can't remember if this was a girl or a boy chicken. Now all I need is a good migraine chick tag line. Does anyone have any ideas??