I've never been a big fan of Paula Abdul. Sure I liked her music when it first came out, but I never bought her albums or followed her career. When I used to watch American Idol, I thought she was one wacky spaced out chick.
So I'm not sure why I started watching her reality show Hey Paula on Bravo. Maybe it was the zombie syndrome thing, where I like to watch zombie movies because they make me feel better, so I can say to myself "at least I'm not a zombie" or "at least I'm not Paula Abdul."
Then came the episode where she discussed how much pain she is in. She has rheumatoid arthritis and she has had a whole bunch of surgeries on her neck. She is a chronic pain chick who just wants to get back to being her old self, and suddenly, I could identify with her emotions and frustrations, etc. I could totally understand wanting to get her old life back, and her wanting to further her career despite her pain.
Her wacky behavior made a lot more sense, cause I feel pretty wacky inside my head sometimes with my chronic pain. I'm just glad I'm not in the public eye like her. (but it would be nice to have a staff like hers to help take care of me)