Friday, August 31, 2007

Migraine Barbie and Her Pets!

With her migraine pounding her brain like a jack hammer, Migraine Barbie was so not in the mood for her dogs today.

Tuesday, August 28, 2007

Darn Chickens

I went to The Michigan State Fair this weekend, and I tried to use my “summer day migraine management” skills. Everything went well, until half way through the fair when a migraine snuck up behind me and smacked me in the head. Therefore, I took a nice long break in the shade, ate some deep fried breaded raviolis and drank a whole bottle of water with a pain pill chaser and I soldiered on.

At the midway with the rides, they even had a couple old-fashioned sideshows like the world’s smallest woman, etc... I thought about setting up my own booth called “The girl with the giant melon.” See the head that most hats will not fit!

I tried to take some pictures of chickens for my migraine chick theme, but those darn chickens will not hold still. I swear a couple of them saw me with my camera and they turned around so their butts were facing me. I was trying to talk to a couple of them, you know photographer to model type stuff, but a couple of women looked at me as if I was truly nuts. Here are my best shots.

Friday, August 24, 2007

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

True Colors

The other night I went to dinner with three co-workers after work. Usually, I’ve found them to be pleasant girls to hang around with at work, but with one beer each in them, they turned into shrill gossip harpies.

They verbally shredded one girl who was just fired because of her absenteeism. She said she was missing a lot of work because of panic attacks, and she hadn’t been employed long enough to qualify for family/medical leave. The gossip harpies said they thought she was faking just so she could take time off work, and she deserved to be fired.

The next victim on their list was a girl who they declared was a psycho, because she’s bi-polar and she forgot to take her meds one day. Someone found her in the stairwell crying. Being someone who frequently cries in the bathroom during bad migraine days, I could totally empathize with this girl’s plight.

I tried to defend these two fellow sufferers, saying panic attacks could be truly disabling and forgetting your meds one day doesn’t make you a psycho.

They looked at me as if I was completely nuts, and then it occurred to me what do they say about me when I’m not there? I miss a lot of work because of my migraines. I’m surprised they even asked me to dinner with the way they were talking about these other girls.

I tried to change the topic, but they were having none of it. One girl even asked, “Who can we talk about next?”

Maybe they were just gossiping for the sport of it, but I think I really saw their true colors during that meal, or maybe with my being a chronic pain chick, I can truly sympathize with people with similar situations.

Sunday, August 19, 2007

Museum Migraine Chick

I made this picture at dumpr-fun with your photos and I thought it turned out pretty cute.

Thursday, August 16, 2007

Lunch Time Hell

Sometimes at work, my lunchtime becomes truly a nightmare because there is nowhere to go with a migraine to relax. Most of the time, I feel like I’m Goldilocks looking for the spot that is just right, or even better, I’m a troll, looking for a dark bridge underpass to huddle under.

The work lunchroom is always packed and there are two television sets tuned into different soap operas. The lights are bright and there are too many smells like tuna fish, etc…

The building cafĂ© is not much better. Again, there are blaring television sets but they are both tuned into CNN. It’s not as bright, but it can be very crowded.

The small park outside the building is beautiful. There is a pond with fountains and geese, but again it can be too bright on a sunny day, and there can be the noise of lawnmowers, etc, and the smell of flowering bushes.Not to mention the heat of hot summer day.

My car is the last resort, but sitting in the parking lot by myself makes me nervous, and it’s a far walk. It takes me six minutes to get to my car and the return journey takes another six minutes. Subtract that from thirty-minute lunchtime with a five-minute pee break thrown in and it’s not worth it.

Therefore, every day becomes a crapshoot with my trying to find somewhere to eat. In addition, I used to love to read at lunch, too, but I have the reading problem going on as well. I think I’m going to look into some audio book downloads for my Ipod. That might be a solution if I’m having a bad pain or vision day.

Monday, August 13, 2007

Book Addict Crises

I’m a total book-buying addict. I love going to bookstores and buying books. I actually get a buzz from doing it, but lately, I haven’t been reading as much as I used to because of my migraines. If it's not the pain, it's the blurry vision or the lack of concentration. This is truly frustating because reading books is one of my favorite things to do.

Therefore, I have a huge pile of unread books mocking me. Some of the books I’ve even forgotten why I even bought them in the first place. Right now, my pile stands at sixteen books. And guess what, I went to the bookstore and bought another book this weekend! Like I need another one!

I have noticed it's easier to read diaries or fake fiction diaries (like Bridget Jones's Diary) because the story is broken down into easier chunks of days to digest, so I've been grativating toward those kind of books. Also, I'm not even attempting to read books with tiny print anymore. I just can't do it.

Has anyone else noticed a change in their reading habits like mine with their migraines?

Saturday, August 11, 2007

Migraine Barbie and The Chick

Migraine Chick told Barbie she is going to have another migraine very soon.

Thursday, August 9, 2007

Beyond Casseroles

Beyond Casseroles 505 Ways to Encourage a Chronically Ill Friend
is quite a handy little book. It’s easy to read, helpful, insightful and written by a truly compassionate author, Lisa J. Copen, who knows what it’s like to have a chronic illness.

This book is small enough to fit in your purse or your tote bag, but it’s packed full of ideas to help with people with chronic illnesses. The ideas range from the practical like helping with the mail to lending emotional support and offering encouragement. What I really liked were the suggestions on what not to say to someone with a chronic illness.

Although the book is intended to offer ideas to encourage a chronically ill friend, there are many ideas that someone who has chronic illness, like myself, could apply to their own life. One thing I’ve learned living with migraines is that I have to be a good friend to myself, although some days it’s hard putting up with me. With the imaginative and caring ideas in this book, it might just be a little easier.

Tuesday, August 7, 2007

The Pill Fairy

If you're nice to her, she might bring you something for your migraine pain relief!

Monday, August 6, 2007

Migraine Fog

I barely made it through work on Friday because my migraine was so bad, and I was in bed for the entire weekend. Today, I called in sick to work. I can sit up and do little things, but there was no way I could drive myself into work, sit at my desk and be a chirpy call center drone all day.

I wrote this on Friday, trying to capture what I was feeling in the moment at work.

Migraine Fog

I find myself, staring at my computer screen at work, unsure of what I was even doing. Chunks of time drop off the clock, but there is nothing in the void in my mind, no languid daydreams or making plans for the weekend or imagining a midnight tryst with a secret lover. There is just a painful throbbing inside my head. I have to stir myself as if from a deep sleep, although my eyes are wide open, and try to focus on something.

Friday, August 3, 2007

Paula Abdul is a Chronic Pain Chick

I've never been a big fan of Paula Abdul. Sure I liked her music when it first came out, but I never bought her albums or followed her career. When I used to watch American Idol, I thought she was one wacky spaced out chick.

So I'm not sure why I started watching her reality show Hey Paula on Bravo. Maybe it was the zombie syndrome thing, where I like to watch zombie movies because they make me feel better, so I can say to myself "at least I'm not a zombie" or "at least I'm not Paula Abdul."

Then came the episode where she discussed how much pain she is in. She has rheumatoid arthritis and she has had a whole bunch of surgeries on her neck. She is a chronic pain chick who just wants to get back to being her old self, and suddenly, I could identify with her emotions and frustrations, etc. I could totally understand wanting to get her old life back, and her wanting to further her career despite her pain.

Her wacky behavior made a lot more sense, cause I feel pretty wacky inside my head sometimes with my chronic pain. I'm just glad I'm not in the public eye like her. (but it would be nice to have a staff like hers to help take care of me)