Sometimes, I feel like the programming in my brain does remain from my life before my migraines. I need to do all this stuff to feel like I'm accomplishing something, and if I don't, I'm a great big failure. It's a constant battle between my old self and my new self. It's hard to live my life one way for so long, and suddenly everything has changed.
It's almost as if this other person (migraine chick) has moved into my head, and I'm in charge of taking care her. It's a great big pain in the butt. I'm not even sure I like her, but I'm stuck with her 24/7. It is a very slow learning process.
I really miss my old self.